Showing posts from January, 2018

Better Day

I made it through the migraine. I finally did get to sleep last night, and it was gone when I woke up. Today the problem is mostly in my upper back and chest. My back is sort of sore, and my chest is a little tight, but not unbearably so. The soreness could be from the weird way that I slept. The tightness is surely illness related. 

I took a walk across the street to get more water, and that put a lot of strain on me. I'm definitely not okay. I prayed this morning to "call in my healing." We're healed by the stripes of Yahusha, right? So... I called in my healing. I asked for its delivery. I'm hoping that anyone else out there who is a man or woman of faith will pray for me, as well.  

I still have pitting edema, but the swelling in my legs and ankles is lower than it was yesterday. Every day is like a trade-off. One painful symptom swaps out for another, but it never completely goes away. 

I don't know if I'm so sick because I'm low on protein or sick …

Mondo Migraine

I'm not going to intentionally share this post. If someone finds it and reads it, it's okay, but I'm not going to hit a share button. I have a headache right now that is so crushing that I can't even "sleep it off." I can't take ibuprofen because it can mess up my kidneys even worse, and the 500 mg of Tylenol didn't work. I don't want to take anymore and make myself sicker with that. I am literally about to throw up. I'm looking forward to it because it might just make me feel better. 

Today was not a good day as far as my physical health goes. I've been sick all day, tired, swollen, nauseous, and fighting a headache. Well, I sat down and tried to write some articles at about two or three, and when I got up from sitting, which wasn't very long, the bottom half of my body was completely swollen. No ankles whatsoever. 

This headache has taken over, and I noticed that my pee has even more foam/bubbles in it than usual, which means bye-bye i…

Strange Day

I got hit on by a man-lady who told me I was attractive for a 50-year-old. Ouch. Usually, people underestimate my age. Wow, I guess I haven't been looking very youthful in my ill state. I felt like crap this morning, and I guess it's starting to show on the outside. Um, what's up with the lesbianic advances, though? I'm not into chicks, even if they make themselves look like little boys. Lol, I don't swing that way. In fact, I don't swing any way. I take lots of pride in my continuing celibacy, but not too much pride as to become arrogant. That would be sinful. 

All I need right now are some caring people in my life. You know, some genuinely caring people who aren't trying to get something from me... who aren't trying to hurt me in any way. I am too sick to even make it all the way to the store sometimes, so a relationship won't be happening anytime soon. Besides, I don't think kidney failures and possible cardiac issues are on the "hot"…

My Idea of an Exciting Day

The past two days have been pretty good ones as far as energy levels. I enjoyed a good portion of yesterday and today without feeling like something was sucking all the life out of me. The swelling in my face even went down a little bit. I've been working (stationary) and watching some old 80s movies to entertain myself and make myself laugh. Yesterday it was "Ferris Bueller's Day Off" and then "The Pickup Artist" with Robert Downey, Jr. and Molly Ringwald. Today it's "Young Guns" in between wordsmithing projects. I've already done "The Breakfast Club," "Pretty in Pink," "Some Kind of Wonderful" so forth and so on. Yeah, I know, they're all "secular" movies, but they are from my younger years, and I guess I've been feeling a bit nostalgic lately. I've been on a Brat Pack mission these past few weeks. 

My car is still up on jack stands. I don't know if I wrote about it, but I had to qui…

Hot, and not in a Good Way

I'm hot, and my chest is rather congested at this time. It's not like a fever, but more like the room feels hotter than it actually is.

Today wasn't such a good day. I keep trying to do regular things, and they just aren't working anymore. A guy was talking to me about a job today, too. He was trying to be helpful, and I was just standing there thinking, "Man, I can't even sit up half the time, lol. There's no way I'm going to be putting in 12 hours a day at anyone's factory." 

I couldn't say that to him though because I didn't want him to think I was lazy or didn't want to work. It's not that I don't want to, but I have to be realistic. I can do a sedentary job like the one I've been doing, or I can do a driving job, but that still doesn't mean that I won't sometimes be too sick to do those, too. I can maybe stand in front of someone's counter, but I'll need to sit down after a while. It is what it is, an…

A Good Day

Today was what I call a good day. It was a day when I had enough energy to get a significant amount of work done, and I didn't have a hella-massive headache or an icky nauseous feeling. It's like a holiday when I experience all three positive feelings at once. I'm still swollen, but maybe not as much as I am some other times. 

I've been studying and researching lately. I looked for some forums to join so I wouldn't be using social media as my coping mechanism, but I don't know. I guess I wasn't ready for forums. I'm not as sick as some other folks are, and I feel like a sissy-girl or a big baby if I go on there whining about this to someone who is waiting in line for a transplant. 

I just... couldn't. 

I feel like utter crap, but I can't even imagine how bad those people feel. Bless their hearts, and I have no idea how they do it. My pain/illness threshold is very low, and headaches and nausea are two things that put me out of commission until they…

Knowing Put My Mind at Ease

Just knowing what is wrong with me has put my mind and everything at rest. There is no feeling worse than knowing that you are extremely ill but not knowing exactly what the problem is. Anyway, I was wrong. It wasn't my heart, and it wasn't my thyroid.  Thank goodness I didn't get a chance to start eating to treat my thyroid. Many of the foods that one would eat to try to treat thyroid issues could actually mess up their kidneys. That is what my problem is. I have renal failure. Yeah, I have documentation, but if you want to see that, you'll need to contact me personally.

Lol, I had a conversation with my Uber driver on the way. We were trying to figure out what was wrong. Driver thought it might have been my thyroid, too. That massive weight gain is what made that person think thyroid because the person had a relative who suffered from such. Well, we were both wrong. I actually did think of my kidneys for a second after I saw my pee-pee yesterday, but then I dismissed …

A New Day

I remained quiet for the latter part of yesterday. A life-changing event occurred, and I felt that it was just time for quiet mourning and resting. I 'll never understand how some people celebrate when these events occur. I didn't think this type of event was anything to celebrate, but then again, I'm a sentimental gal. Many folks from this generation don't appreciate that quality. All emotions are either weak, weird, or "crazy" to some folks. I'll never change, though. I do like who I am in that aspect, and I'm glad that no one was ever able to completely kill that part of me. 

I am still waiting for the new MAP sensor and vacuum harness to come in so that I can put it on the car and fire her up again. I'm pretty confident that it will be ready to drive after that. I hope I can stop paying Uber soon because it's killing me. 

Today, I woke up with a headache, and I thought I'd take a walk to get some exercise and see if I could get any of th…

Salesman Wigs, Uber Laughs

You know you've had a great day when you share a laugh with your Uber driver as he drops you off at your destination. The reason? Well, the Uber driver could overhear the insurance salesman as he snapped on me and hung up on me because I wasn't giving him my "full attention." Can I say WTF? Nope. Only, if I mean what the fudge. 

That was hilarious. The health insurance people have been calling me. Yeah, of course, I've been looking into coverage, but it does me no good because all the plans are screwed. Believe me; if there was a plan that was within my price range, I would have it. I'm a numbers girl. I've already tried running the numbers six ways to Sunday. You're either screwed on the premium, or you're screwed on the deductible, but ma'am, you... are... screwed.

Grammarly's gonna tell me I used several unnecessary ellipses now. 

I don't like insurance salespeople much, to be honest. A lot of them don't care who they sign up, just…

Hospital Experience and Daily Health Updates

People usually know their own bodies, and they know when something is terribly wrong. First, let me say that I would never ever pretend to have a medical condition as serious as the stuff that I've been talking about as a:

Way to get sympathy Way to get a reactionWay to get some kind of benefit

That's just not me, although I knew some folks who did do something like that in the past. I had been fighting these symptoms for the past few weeks and trying to avoid going to the hospital because:

I don't have moneyI don't have good coverageBad past experiencesI don't feel that hospitals are good caregivers on the whole

My strength was so bad yesterday that I finally sucked it up, asked someone to help me, and got myself to the hospital. This was after three weeks of swelling in different areas of my body (ankles, legs, feet, behind the eyes, abdomen) and dealing with headaches, shortness of breath, and horrible, horrible fatigue, such that I couldn't even work. I'm a…

My Car Is In Better Condition Than I Am

The rent is free in both Heaven and Hell, so the thought of death does not frighten me. I know that we all have to have the first death, and I also know that I'll be free of rent when my time comes, lol. It's the pain that scares me. I would hate to have to suffocate to death. I mean, the idea of that really stinks. 

I'm propped up in the bed. All I did was go outside to tinker with the car and walk across the street to the convenience store, and I had apparently overextended myself. 

Legs are swollen today. Last night it was my belly. Breathing is hard right now. 

I have a good day for a few good days, and then I forget that the issue is still there. I stupidly drank a little coffee because I was trying to stay up and work last night. A lot of good that did because I ended up falling asleep on the project anyway. Palpitations today, too. 

I'm trying to maintain the strength to at least write and try to earn, but I really just want to go to sleep right now. This is so wack…

The 2005 Chevrolet Monte Carlo Started and Here's What Was Wrong

The first thing I did when I didn't get a full start from the Monte Carlo is I checked the spark plug wiring diagram. Actually, two of them were in the wrong spots, but they had to have been like that before I took the car apart because I labeled them all exactly where I got them from. I'm not the one who originally put those plugs on, so I don't know. At any rate, I had to switch two of them. 

Next, I watched some videos from Schrodinger about diagnosing "crank but no start" issues. I was pretty sure that the problem was my MAP sensor and stuff, but I still wanted to make sure that there wasn't something else I was overlooking. Schrodinger is a cool guy. He's so meticulous that he tries not to get oil on himself all the time, and I think he's funny the way he talks at the "Honda fanboys" and people who complain about the way he does stuff in his videos. 

I watched The Original Mechanic next and went through the last part of his intake manifol…