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"Dear Wounded" Song From 2010

Today I'd like to share a song I wrote in 2010. I was collaborating with a band named Smashcan at the time, and they were sincerely cons...

Mondo Migraine

I'm not going to intentionally share this post. If someone finds it and reads it, it's okay, but I'm not going to hit a share button. I have a headache right now that is so crushing that I can't even "sleep it off." I can't take ibuprofen because it can mess up my kidneys even worse, and the 500 mg of Tylenol didn't work. I don't want to take anymore and make myself sicker with that. I am literally about to throw up. I'm looking forward to it because it might just make me feel better. 

Today was not a good day as far as my physical health goes. I've been sick all day, tired, swollen, nauseous, and fighting a headache. Well, I sat down and tried to write some articles at about two or three, and when I got up from sitting, which wasn't very long, the bottom half of my body was completely swollen. No ankles whatsoever. 

This headache has taken over, and I noticed that my pee has even more foam/bubbles in it than usual, which means bye-bye important proteins. Whatever's in my urine is obviously not in my blood where it should be.

I am in so much pain right now. I still can't believe that this is happening. It just kind of swept in and started attacking me. I'm trying so hard to keep going, working, fighting, praying, "thinking positively"... but it just hurts so bad sometimes. 

Sometimes when I am in this much pain, crying feels good. But then I always feel like I have to hide my tears for fear of being accused of being depressed.

No, I'm not depressed, but I am in extreme pain. This freaking hurts, and I should be allowed to exhibit a normal response to pain without feeling... what's a good term?... analyzed, lol.  

This here is a mondo migraine, folks. I get them more frequently these days. I wouldn't wish one of these on my worst enemy. For some reason, writing gives me a little bit of relief. Meh, probably because it forces me to focus on the mechanics of typing instead of focusing on the pain. 


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